Think I am dropping out of college. Okay, let me rephrase. I am dropping out of college. Dakota Smith mentions ” Why do people go to college when they have no desire to try, or even to learn?” Well, I fall into that category, somewhat. I came to college as an Atheist, so my priorities were as follows:
Go to school.
Give NO crap to anything, ever, except doing well in school to get rich.
Needless to say, I was in the wrong. I only wanted to go because I could become rich in the future. I mean, WHO DOESN’T? It is so cool to think that you have the opportunity to get an education and a degree and go to all these lovely businesses and become super rich to buy WHATEVER YOU WANT. And I understand where that could be desirable. It is hard to realize that money isn’t everything, honestly.
But about 9 months ago, when I accepted Christ into my heart, I shortly learned that materialistic things weren’t the only things that mattered. I was taught that these worldly things won’t matter at all when you die. I love this, because I greatly enjoy challenges. I would be in sports if I didn’t weigh 97 lbs. 😛
Back on track, being in my third semester, I am realizing that I am here for the wrong reasons. I LOVE learning. SO MUCH. I love the fact that our brains can remember things, and that we can excel in so many fields. I am truly thankful that God gave us such abilities, but at the same time, I just want to devote my brain to the Bible, and live accordingly.
The thought of not being at my school terrifies me, so badly. I am so comfortable here, with my luxuries and my amazing friends that teach me and that I teach in return. Our friendships are beautiful and I know for a fact that I wouldn’t even BE a person of Christ without them. I would be a lost soul, probably dipped into partying and being a bad person. I love them more than they will ever know and I thank God for them constantly. Back on track, again, I know that my God will not throw something at me that I can’t handle, and I really, really think that he isn’t pushing me in this direction towards school. I am happy for my friends that want to stay. They are good at school and I’m sure they feel that they are in the right place here. I just feel that God really wants to use me for something else, and I am thankful for such feelings.
All in all, I cannot wait to embark on new journeys. I learn lessons HOURLY and I cannot wait to learn more, out in the open.
I understand that this is a big rant, but I had to get it out.
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